You see that cute boy up there? THAT'S MY BESTFRIEND.
And ya, he very thick-skinned (worse than a girl, I tell you).
He clever-ly went to name himself Hotstuff in my phone and I've yet to change it back cause it's of no use.

Hi to you, beloved bestfriend Farhan (':
The only reason why I'm dedicating this post to you is because I feel that I have need to after all the drama that has happened.

Remember the first time that led to us talking? yes, the bus stop, of all places. haiss.. cute or what. that was in.. 2009.
Remember when we were in the same bus as the twins and I wasnt on talking terms with one of them (you know who) and you waited for the bus with me at the bus stop near your house?
I dont think you remember this part.
Remember how you stood up for me when your ex was very against me and called me names? ah, that, i'll never forget cause no one have ever protected me so much. (':
Remember those nights that I'll wait for you to talk on the phone in the wee hours cause we didnt want to make things between us so obvious to everyone?
okay, remember this remember that, i'm running out of things for you to remember. heh.

Anyway, sorry for everything that has recently happened. I know you're sorry.
Maybe I'm just too sensitive. Gotta admit that both are at fault.
I blame myself, I blame you too.
I'll never thought it'll be this bad to the extent that there were vulgarities all over our texts.
I'll give you what you need but mind me, if I get too clingy again.
I'm changing my ways alright. for you, for this friendship.
I dont want this friendship to go down the drain just like that cause it's the best I ever had and I truly mean it. (':

you know, sometimes I feel like you're using me (sorry to say but I'm just letting it out).
But I DONT BLAME YOU FULLY.
cause I know there are people out there who are jealous of us.
and ya, I understand your situation.
I'm trying my very best here not to say out names or make things so obvious to the public.
If you dont get what I mean, you can always ask me.

They say "save your heart and tears for someone who cares and is worth it".
It's as good as telling me to stop making myself suffer because of you.
But you know what bestf? I've got no heart to let you or let this friendship go.
I know you care and I know you're worth it.

I know people say bestfriends of the opposite sex dont work.
but well, at least for now, it works between us.
we may have fallen for each other but we know there's this line between us.
we talk about the most unexpected things. basically, everything and anything (shhh.. you know, I know lah huh. heh.) despite us being the opposite sex.
shows how comfortable and how open we are with one another.

I know there are bitches and jerks out there who dont like to see us happy, who want our friendship to end, who are happy when we fight and whtsoever.
their wish wont come true any sooner. true?
Cause this friendship I have will be growing stronger every minute.

Remember that hug you gave me that night? I need that. I really do. :/
I miss our late night phone calls. Dont you?
Most importantly, I miss you. I truly do. Dont you? (':

Thanks for everything. I love you. 20th foreverrrrrrr. <3